I am Afraid
Entrepreneur as defined by Merriam-Webster:
"one who organizes manages, and assumes the risks of a business or enterprise"
Entrepreneurship has its challenges, the biggest one being "You." Yourself. The one who assumes the risks.
The entire process is quite an adventure; trekking the unknown and slaying dragons, many dragons - despite all the dragons you bring down, one monster is persistent; it is a monster known as fear. I am still wrestling with the beast.
I am a little overdue in writing this, and truth? I have procrastinated due to fear: I said the "F" word (again), and this emotion got the best of me.
One of my goals for my business is to create a community of "Trail Cabronas" I want to bring more color into the trail running space; I want to see more badass Mujeres on the trails, getting dirty.
The initial action I want to take is to host a series of community runs; the purpose of hosting the trail runs is to bring women together, empower each other in a challenging space, and introduce women to the sport of trail running and or ultra running.
Hosting these events will allow me to take action and be more than a face on social media; there will be an opportunity to lead and meet new people. I will hold space to be present and available to cheer you on, answer your questions, or silently run beside you because it was one hell of a day.
One of those runs was supposed to be in April, and April has come and nearly gone; You are probably wondering what happened? Or what might have held me back?
If you guessed the "F" word, you are correct!
Let me tell you what it looks like in my life; excuses. They become more excuses (more excuses), a little oh, I'll do it tomorrow. And if you are human like me, tomorrow becomes the day after tomorrow. It begins to repeat itself; shame builds, then those "I told you so voices" become so LOUD, and the fear manifests into anxiety. Bam, just like that! My intention became just words.
Did I get hung up on the what-ifs? Did I create a false narrative?
Yes, I did and made zero progress forward. I am reading this out loud, and my eyes wallow with tears because I am admitting the truth.
Why am I telling you this? I am telling you this because I am human. You are too. I am telling you this because despite the ultra marathons I have run, being an entrepreneur is new territory to me. What if I fail at being a leader?
I cannot create a community if I do not put myself out there and host events. I cannot make myself a resource if I do not shout to the moons and tell you I want to help you. I cannot move forward with La Direccion if I do not take ACTION.
Maybe running, trail running, and ultra running is new for you (or not). Maybe meeting new people is scary for you. Maybe, you are scared to ask questions. My point is we are dancing on something foreign together, me leading and you showing up.
With a deep breath and my shaky hands at this keyboard; my heart beating fast, this is me taking action.
The first Trail Cabronas run will take place Wednesday, May 4th at 6:00 pm. Location: TBD
Nervous? Me too
Scared? Me too
But we'll dance to something new together, I hope to see you there!
Happy Trails!
Quote of the Week:
“And one has to understand that braveness is not the absence of fear but rather the strength to keep on going forward despite the fear.”
― Paulo Coelho
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